3 posts tagged “friends”

So, work crush?  Mostly gone by now.  I've never actually talked to him up close to notice his facial features in detail, but I did today and omg, his mouth and nose are so out of whack with the rest of his face, I don't know how I never noticed.  And he lisps.  And not in a good way.  So, the crush is mostly gone.  Mostly.  Ok, so I still am madly in like with him.  But. I'm no longer wanting 2.5 Jack Russell Terriers, His and His SUVs and a condo in Turtle Creek. 

In other news, I haven't done much of anything this past week.  Unplug the phone, sleep alone, stay way out of sight.  It's not as depressing as it sounds. I just don't feel like doing anything.  I have plans with Lance for Halloween, but after that, I'm not really looking to do anything.  And really, I only agreed to go to the Halloween party with Lance because he's coming in from Fort Worth and I don't want to seem like a big bitch and say no, I don't want to go (which I do want to go...just not sure if I really want to go because it's a halloween party or if I want to go to have fun).  Either way, I'm going.  So there's that.

My mom and stepdad (I guess that's what I'd call him.  I mean, they married after I was an adult, so I don't know that he's really my stepdad, but it's easier than saying my Mom's husband) went to Corpus for the weekend, so I'll be all alone all weekend.  Which will be nice.  I have so much cleaning and laundry to do along with just wanting to sleep, lie in bed all day and cry as John on Days of our Lives dies. 

Despite what this entry sounds like (and I realize it seems like I have no life, which I don't), I'm actually very happy right now.  I have a few new friends, a few old ones still around out there somewhere and I really am happy.  Now, if only I could just NOT be single.  That would make me ecstatic!

Actually, surprisingly, they are.  Not that their new song sounds anything like anything on the radio now, instead sounding like everything that ever hit the radio between 1997 and six weeks later in 1997. It's bad.  Not a fan...

Anyway, the point is that I'm moved into my new apartment and things have so far been going swimmingly.  Well, except for the drama with the whole getting the internet/phone service up and running.  I now have more bills than I used to.  And I don't really like that.  I'm thinking of shutting down my Netflix account and switching to another TiVo account.  Because you see, my current Tivo is fine, but it's like Vintage TiVo, so it's got the lifetime subscription, which isn't sold anymore. So, I'm keeping that one for sure.  Then, Lee gave me his Series 2 TiVo (seriously, the thing was untouched, the manuals were still in the shrink wrap). I'm going to be using that one.  I just can't decide whether to put it in the bedroom or attach it to the main TV and just use the other one for something else.  Either way.  I just don't know.

Also, I now have a kind of stalker.  It's weird.  He and I have this weird sparky thing between us.  But we've never actually done anything together.  Anyway, he showed up on the bus on Tuesday and wanted to hang out today.  Got out of it because of work obligations, but it was close. It's not that I don't like him, it's just that he comes on SO strong.  On the plus side, he's sort of well off and he's pretty decent some of the time.  Plus, he has a lot of friends, which could become my friends if I play my cards right.  The only problem is that I have to be friends with him and not anything more, which I believe he wants.  Something more than friends, I mean.  I guess.  I don't know.  All I do know is that he really kind of bugs me, but I like that he does or something.  It's kind of complicated.  And he's not even that cute (not that that's ever stopped me from anything before, haha).

So there's my abysmal little update.  I was going to cook myself some dinner, but I think I might just order a pizza or something.  Who can say?

So, my original plan for this blog was for it to be about kind of whatever was going on around me and maybe that was why I didn't update for so long.  I don't think I really wanted anyone on the internet to read about what was going on around me.  I mean, I think between my last post and now (almost a whole year), a lot of things have happened.  I spent a night in jail, got rid of a few friends, changed my hair and most importantly began moving away from my old life.

After high school ended, I sort of ended up in limbo, mainly because I'm probably one of the few people who actually enjoyed every minute of high school.  The bitchiness, the cattiness, the gossip, the rumors, the vicious bitches and the overall everything that went on in high school.  I loved every minute of it.  Unfortunately, once you leave high school, everyone else kind of gets over that, because well, they hated all that stuff.  That's why I sunk into the world of soap operas, where that stuff still happens among adults.  So, college for me really sucked, because no one seemed interested in the backstabbing and rumormongering that went on in high school. So, I dropped out and went to work.  That worked until I got fired from a really good gig for being gay.  I told all my friends the reason was that they just didn't need me anymore, which was the official reason my old manager gave me.  But the real reason was that the wackadoo Christian bitch known as my supervisor found out that I was gay and couldn't deal with that, so she had me fired.  I felt just like Star Jones or Shannen Doherty.  It sucked.

Hence why I've enacted some changes in my life.  I've tried to stop inventing lies and stories to make myself seem more interesting.  It's ultimately done nothing but ruin my friendships with people I've been friends with forever.  Another part of my changes is that I'm trying to get out more from my friends from high school. I've sort of been leeching on to them in some sort of desperate attempt to keep myself in high school.  It didn't work.  So, now I've got to rethink my strategy.  I suppose honesty would be the best policy where that sort of thing is concerned.  I've also committed myself to being a better friend (mostly by not drinking so much booze when we go out).

So, the new point of this blog will be things that I stumble upon in the internets and also a few entries about my work and my personal life.  I'm trying to get out of LJ and try something new.  So here goes.