4 posts tagged “gay”

National coming out day is October 11th, 2007.  I was going to openly admit that I'm gay on that day, but it's become clear to me that most people know that I'm gay.  Including my family.  But since I haven't admitted it, really, I'm stuck with this sort of weird limbo where some people know that I'm gay and some don't.

So, here it is. I'm gay. I still have to tell my mother, but I think that with my sister's support, I'll be able to.

Here's to being proud to be gay!

So, work has been stressful, mostly because they dumped the entire Accounts Receivable Reconciliation stuff on me and gave me a mess of shit with that.  Like the fact that the lady who did it before me never researched anything and just wrote it off after it aged long enough.  She can be such a b.

In other news, I'm really pretty tired lately and I think it's because I can't sleep at night.  I don't know why.  It's not to do with smoking (pretty much quit that) and it's not because of caffeine because I only drink that until 7pm and then stop.  I don't know why but I can't sleep.  I think it must be financial stress.  I make more than enough money, but I just spend so much.  I really need to cut back on the spending.  Or make use of what I have.  I mean, I pay for a gym membership that I don't use.  OMG...Idea.  Maybe if I work out every night, then I'll eventually wear myself out enough to fall asleep at night and not on the bus in the afternoon.

Haven't been up to much lately.  Last week, went with Jessie to Dallas Pride. It was hot outside, I got a lot of beads and way drunk.  Tons of fun!  And this weekend, I have no plans.  Being a grownup sucks.  That is all.

Oh, wait, it's not.  I'm ready for November to be here because then $187 of my monthly debt goes bye-bye.  And I need to call all my credit cards and inform them that I need payment plans because I just don't have the money.  Also, my electric bill is way too high for my taste, so I've been keeping the air close to 80 and the lights off most of the time.  Sadly, this means that until I can get stable financially, I have to wait to get a pet.

Ok, I am officially saddened by the news that Tammy Faye has died.  I'm not saying that she led a perfect life (her dealings with the whole PTL scandal pretty much sealed her off from perfect), but you can't really say that she wasn't a good person.  She asked for forgiveness from those she hurt and for the most part, I think she got it.  She was also one of the very few evangelical personalities who openly loved the gay community.  She's stood by the gays for years as they've stood by her.  If you reach gay icon status, you've made it, as far as I'm concerned.

The first time I ever saw Tammy Faye on anything was when she had her own talk show with Jm J Bullock (whom I also love unconditionally.  He could probably go out and murder 10 people and I'd still think he was a great guy).  My mom loved the show and so did I.  Plus, it came on at 10am which was perfect because after Regis and Kathie Lee, there was nothing else on until The Price is Right.  Tammy Faye played brilliantly off Jm's antics and they both were hilarious on the show.  My only wish is that she could have died looking a little healthier than she did.  She deserved at least that.

I'm going to miss her.  And her gawdy make-up.

So, my original plan for this blog was for it to be about kind of whatever was going on around me and maybe that was why I didn't update for so long.  I don't think I really wanted anyone on the internet to read about what was going on around me.  I mean, I think between my last post and now (almost a whole year), a lot of things have happened.  I spent a night in jail, got rid of a few friends, changed my hair and most importantly began moving away from my old life.

After high school ended, I sort of ended up in limbo, mainly because I'm probably one of the few people who actually enjoyed every minute of high school.  The bitchiness, the cattiness, the gossip, the rumors, the vicious bitches and the overall everything that went on in high school.  I loved every minute of it.  Unfortunately, once you leave high school, everyone else kind of gets over that, because well, they hated all that stuff.  That's why I sunk into the world of soap operas, where that stuff still happens among adults.  So, college for me really sucked, because no one seemed interested in the backstabbing and rumormongering that went on in high school. So, I dropped out and went to work.  That worked until I got fired from a really good gig for being gay.  I told all my friends the reason was that they just didn't need me anymore, which was the official reason my old manager gave me.  But the real reason was that the wackadoo Christian bitch known as my supervisor found out that I was gay and couldn't deal with that, so she had me fired.  I felt just like Star Jones or Shannen Doherty.  It sucked.

Hence why I've enacted some changes in my life.  I've tried to stop inventing lies and stories to make myself seem more interesting.  It's ultimately done nothing but ruin my friendships with people I've been friends with forever.  Another part of my changes is that I'm trying to get out more from my friends from high school. I've sort of been leeching on to them in some sort of desperate attempt to keep myself in high school.  It didn't work.  So, now I've got to rethink my strategy.  I suppose honesty would be the best policy where that sort of thing is concerned.  I've also committed myself to being a better friend (mostly by not drinking so much booze when we go out).

So, the new point of this blog will be things that I stumble upon in the internets and also a few entries about my work and my personal life.  I'm trying to get out of LJ and try something new.  So here goes.